Will I Ever Be Free?

My parents are away for the weekend.

"Hurray!" I hear you say?

Yet, what was suppose to be a happy occasion turn out to be a disaster. Mums... The moment they have to leave their kids at home when they go overseas, they freak out. It doesn't matter that the kids are already going on in their twenties or late in their tens... They never grow a day older in their eyes. Hence, they NEVER stop meddling with your lives. That alone doesn't bother me a lot. I've lived through 23 years of mum taking care of me, even if it is a bit excessive in times. But mums looking out for their kids is natural. However, not when others come into the picture.

My mum ain't gone for even 24 hours and i am already feeling strained. I had barely rested my feet at home when i received a call from cousin 1 saying that his mum got us some tickets to see the Prime Minister when he grace an event at our neighbourhood tomorrow. Hell, i know that he is coming but i don't even know that it's tomorrow. And he wasn't asking if we wanted to join his family for the event tomorrow but we MUST because our parents are overseas and his mum already got the tickets. You will think that I don't have a life at 23. Honestly, i don't because it's exams period and i NEED to study!!! Does ANYBODY see that?? Oh yes they do. But no doubt they feel that since our parents are not at home, they have to take up the responsibility of "looking" after us. Literally looking. And the best way to do that is to keep us by their side. Literally.

Obviously, this is not the ONLY case. Cousin 1 also kindly request that we make our presence at his house tonight for dinner because his mum assume that we will be having dinner at their house since our parents are away. Naturally i declined because it is something that i am not aware of and i already made plans with my sister to have dinner outside. This is easy to decline but not the dinner event tomorrow. Know what's the best thing about tomorrow night? Apparently they didn't know i was coming back because they only got the tickets for my sister. And they assume that my brother will be working so he will not be able to go for the event. Since my mother has already asked them to make plans for my sister and look after her, why the hell did she ask me to come back for?? Now that they know i am back, they feel obliged to include me in their plans. Great. Even though my parents are not at home, i can feel their eyes following us the moment we step out of the house. What's the best thing that you get from having relatives that live so near to you? No-Thing. Free dinners and lunches, you say?? But every single one of us knew how to cook. My mum made sure of that. And when u have a choice and the time to cook, free diners don't attract you all that much. Moreover, my mum has already stacked up enough food to last us a week even if we cook everyday. Why bother if she ask someone else to look after us??

I know, you'r say we can decline the offer if we had plans right? Right. Do you know how difficult to deline "kind" offers from your relatives? When my cousin first called tonight to inform us of the "kind invitation", i have already told him that we had plans and "to thank his mum for the kind offers". Then Cousin 2 called to inform us that his mum took the liberty to provide for our meals for the weekend since our parents are away. "Thank you very much, but i think it won't be necessary because i have to give tuition the whole day on Sat so i think we will settle our meals outside. What about my sister? Oh, i think she will be going out. How about Sun? Oh, that i don't know yet. I will discuss with my sister and we will inform you again. But thanks anyway for the offer." Such was my gracious deline. Subtle but firm rejection, i think. But obviously my aunt don't get it. Either that, or Cousin 2 didn't. So his mum called us PERSONALLY and request that we make our presence felt at her house. Then what is our house for? The last time my parents went overseas without us, we slept at her house too and she took care of us. We were grateful, of course. BUT THAT WAS ALMOST TEN YEARS AGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Right now i just feel so suffocated. This once-in-ten-years opportunity for me to enjoy home alone life is such a great excitement and they had to ruin it. I had plan to go out and enjoy myself a bit, but decided against it because of my impending exams and the fact that my sister is home alone. That thought alone will prove that i have grown up! BUT WHY DOESN"T ANYONE SEE THAT?? DOESN"T MY AGE SIGNIFY ANYTHING? Strange, but i recall several occasions when they did. Especially when they had asked me to do favours for them. DAMN.

God, i just feel so suffocated. Plus i had a bad morning. I was insulted really badly yesterday and by someone i like too! Damn. And then i have this really bad headache today. Hell, i don't need someone else to RULE MY LIFE!!! JUST LET ME BE!!!!!!!