Sunday, May 25, 2008

A Poem... For all the Parents in Sze Chuan who lost their Children.... 12th May 2008



妈妈别哭,我现在已没有痛苦
不用再看我,你一辈子也会记住
地震来得那么唐突
没有什么可以遮护
幸存的同学真让人羡慕
那一刻,求生的愿望强烈却茫然无助


妈妈别哭,我不能陪你走今后的路

这么多人陪我我不会孤独
却担心你悲痛地泪流如注
我多么希望你能幸福
我多想长大了孝敬父母
我真的不想早走这一步


妈妈别哭,地震是大地在发怒

也许是它一时糊涂
才伤害了这么多无辜
我只是不幸中的一卒
还有更多的人惨不忍睹
泪水掀不起压我的混凝土

妈妈别哭,别再抱着我幼小的身躯

我已没有往日的温度
呼吸和心跳已经止住
请给我换上爱穿的衣服
拿来我爱读的书
假如天堂里还有学府
我会在梦中告诉你考试的分数


妈妈别哭,天灾人祸是对圣灵的荼毒

你柔弱的身躯无法挡住
只要妈妈你还活着
就是上天对我们的眷顾
因为有你,每年清明那小坟上,会多一锹土


妈妈别哭,我现在已没有痛苦

不用再看我,你一辈子也会记住
地震来得那么唐突
没有什么可以遮护

妈妈别哭,我不能陪你走今后的路
这么多人陪我我不会孤独
却担心你悲痛地泪流如注
我多么希望你能幸福
我多想长大了孝敬父母

妈妈别哭,别再抱着我幼小的身躯

我已没有往日的温度
呼吸和心跳已经止住

只要妈妈你还活着
就是上天对我们的眷顾

Monday, May 19, 2008

Fly away....





There are so many things I wanna tell you...
But I am so afraid of saying the wrong things that will break this delicate balance we have.

["When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me]

I wanna ask you when will you come home to me...
But I know you hate the pressure of confrontations, even if I never meant it to be...
But all I wanna tell you now is:

[You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away]

I am not trying to let you go, but I know you are not ready to talk
Or maybe you didn't want to be cruel.
I just wanted to ease this pressure, hopefully it makes both of us feel better.

[Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
Silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried]

Time flies and just passes us by...
But I don't wanna wait till its too late for anything
I know I may have done or say something wrong already
But blissfully ignorant about it

Maybe leaving things to fate has always been my excuse to hide
so that I do not have to face the pain
Of fear, of rejection, or the hurt I cause someone else
But right now, it opens a path for you, if you need to use it
All I want for you, is to be happy again.

Maybe I am being too presumptous
Maybe you are already having fun somewhere
Laughing at this poor fool who is still ignorant
and stuck in self-pity
It has happened before; it can always happen again

But just in case you are feeling miserable like I am
Or just finding a more suitable way to end
I will offer you a way out... even if that slices through my pain

[You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
ohh...
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away]

I remember you saying that you want us to be like the couple in that first and last movie we saw together...
"PS: I LOVE YOU"
You said, you want us to keep the passion burning,
be the one who turn back immediately after an arguement,
and not to just run away.

I have turned back, but your door is still closed.

I remember telling you, that the morale of the story is,

"LOVE TRANSCENDS EVERYTHING, EVEN DEATH"

In our case, does it?

Waiting for you...


Every night, I stay up late, not by my wishes. But I just can't seem to make the images in my mind go away.

I still have your picture on my hp... I just can't work out the courage to erase you from my mind.

I have tried to keep myself busy, but when it comes to the night... I think of how you may be home from work, cooking some dinner and drinking that beer. Watching tv and then go online... I thought I could finally talk to you. But you ain't there everytime.

I've got mixed feelings. I thought I could let you go... I thought I deserved better. But then I told myself, I couldn't let you go without an explanation. So I waited.. till that day, you said you were gonna drop a note, telling me how you feel... So again, I waited...

Now, I open the mailbox, hoping to hear from you.. knowing how you feel... and then I go online to find you there.. but silent. I thought I should make the first move and start talking to you... but I was afraid of what your answer might be.

Fear of the unknown is always the worst... but you always keep me in the dark...

Perhaps you do not feel a need to explain.. or perhaps you just didn't want to be cruel.

Perhaps you didn't know how to pen your thoughts.. or perhaps you just needed more time...

Perhaps you were too busy... or maybe I am just not worth your time...

Whatever it is, i'm still waiting... Till the day you finally let me know the verdict.. Till the day you cast me all out of your life... Till the day that you decide to remember me...

But I will always be here waiting... I'll be here if you need me... someday...

Hopefully by then... I would have managed to erase that photo from my hp.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

P.S: I'm still not over you..... Are you?