Waiting for you...

Every night, I stay up late, not by my wishes. But I just can't seem to make the images in my mind go away.

I still have your picture on my hp... I just can't work out the courage to erase you from my mind.

I have tried to keep myself busy, but when it comes to the night... I think of how you may be home from work, cooking some dinner and drinking that beer. Watching tv and then go online... I thought I could finally talk to you. But you ain't there everytime.

I've got mixed feelings. I thought I could let you go... I thought I deserved better. But then I told myself, I couldn't let you go without an explanation. So I waited.. till that day, you said you were gonna drop a note, telling me how you feel... So again, I waited...

Now, I open the mailbox, hoping to hear from you.. knowing how you feel... and then I go online to find you there.. but silent. I thought I should make the first move and start talking to you... but I was afraid of what your answer might be.

Fear of the unknown is always the worst... but you always keep me in the dark...

Perhaps you do not feel a need to explain.. or perhaps you just didn't want to be cruel.

Perhaps you didn't know how to pen your thoughts.. or perhaps you just needed more time...

Perhaps you were too busy... or maybe I am just not worth your time...

Whatever it is, i'm still waiting... Till the day you finally let me know the verdict.. Till the day you cast me all out of your life... Till the day that you decide to remember me...

But I will always be here waiting... I'll be here if you need me... someday...

Hopefully by then... I would have managed to erase that photo from my hp.