Walking on Parallel Roads

Walking on Parallel Roads,
With my hand encast in his...

Walking on Parallel Roads,
Enjoying the sights along with him...

Walking on Parallel Roads,
Sharing the ease the silence brings...

Walking on Parallel Roads,
Just me and him...

Walking on Parallel Roads that never meet...

I wanna spend my lifetime... Loving You...

All there is to say...

All there is to feel...

There's nothing else I want to do...

Than to spend my lifetime loving you...

I had a dream...

I had a dream last night... and it wasn't good.

I dreamt that he had to let me go... 'Cos he found someone new.

I felt it coming and I thought I'd cry.

But I didn't 'cos it hurt too much to try.

There is a myth where I grew up from,

That when you had a dream that didn't belong...

Just say it loud and voice it out,

Then the dream will not be true.

I went online to seek him out...

Wanting some words of comfort in his "arms"

But what I found gave me naught

Just thoughts of worry and more of doubts.

I knew he has more to worry than my insecurities

And I know I should believe in his love and trust in him

But I guess that's just me.

I may look happy and I look tough...

But there's always a threshold that we pass

I have no limits where love is concerned...

But not when things are so virtual and ....

I should stop.

I won't doubt.

I will just wait and let fate decide.

If he is really that tied and has no time...

Or if he is able to just love me through the screen...

So be it.

I'll be here when he needs my company.

I'll be here even if he doesn't.

I won't decide. No...

Truth is I can't.

I can't shut him out. And I don't want to.

I'll just wait.

Being passive in love may not be the right choice...

But that's what I am. Who I am. How I am.

Where will I be in the next two hundred miles?


It is 6560 miles from Singapore to where he is...

That is 33 two-hundred miles.

Where am I now?

I wonder....

I wonder...

Where are you now and what are you doing?

I wonder...

How are you feeling? Did you have time to miss me?

I wonder...

Did you miss me when you had time? Does absence really make the heart fonder?

I wonder...

How did the meetings go and are you ready to go home?

I wonder...

What are you doing at nights when you go back to the hotel room after work? Are you doing your work or checking your stuff online or...?

I wonder...

What will you be doing if you are not online? Why do you switch off your phone even after work? Why can't I get through to you?

I wonder...

When will you be here with me? Do you still have that desire to be with me? Why don't I feel that eagerness and desire?

I wonder...

Is this what love feels like?

To pine, to hope;
To think, to cope;
To wish, to prove;
To cling, to go?

Ok... time to stop wondering... Back to work. =)