I had a dream...

I had a dream last night... and it wasn't good.

I dreamt that he had to let me go... 'Cos he found someone new.

I felt it coming and I thought I'd cry.

But I didn't 'cos it hurt too much to try.

There is a myth where I grew up from,

That when you had a dream that didn't belong...

Just say it loud and voice it out,

Then the dream will not be true.

I went online to seek him out...

Wanting some words of comfort in his "arms"

But what I found gave me naught

Just thoughts of worry and more of doubts.

I knew he has more to worry than my insecurities

And I know I should believe in his love and trust in him

But I guess that's just me.

I may look happy and I look tough...

But there's always a threshold that we pass

I have no limits where love is concerned...

But not when things are so virtual and ....

I should stop.

I won't doubt.

I will just wait and let fate decide.

If he is really that tied and has no time...

Or if he is able to just love me through the screen...

So be it.

I'll be here when he needs my company.

I'll be here even if he doesn't.

I won't decide. No...

Truth is I can't.

I can't shut him out. And I don't want to.

I'll just wait.

Being passive in love may not be the right choice...

But that's what I am. Who I am. How I am.

Where will I be in the next two hundred miles?


It is 6560 miles from Singapore to where he is...

That is 33 two-hundred miles.

Where am I now?