It's a feat to guess what his heart is thinking...

This is the nick my friend was using the other day. Seems like we are in the same predicament. Is it me again? Is it really just me? Are my uncertainites unfounded? Are my fears unreasonable? Am i being too possessive? All these questions linger in my head and i feel so upset. If i have no right to ask, then what right does he have to be upset? Is it just his convenient excuse to break the date? Or is it really my fault that i asked? Even if it is, i have already apologized and explained why i think that way. Then why did he have to break the date? did he really wanted to meet me? damn, i am so sad right now. I am just so upset. We didn't start off the right way. We didn't understand each other enough. I know there are so many things that are wrong. But i really hope somehow things will be right one way or another. Why is it so hard for me to understand what he is thinking?

Exams are OVER!!!! (and i got me a job)

It's been three weeks since i finish my exams. The moment i finish my exams, i went to club with my friends. Although the clubbing wasn't great, the night after was good... VERY VERY good... by far, i think it was a great end to my exam period. :p

But my mood was greatly disturbed the next day. =( I went to look for my mother for lunch the next day and she gave me distressing news. She was going to deduct my allowances since the exams are over. I was hoping to get some rest this hols before i start looking for part time jobs, but it seems like i hae no money to enjoy my hols anyways. So i got myself a job the following week.

The job i got was an old job. I have been working for this company since the first hols of my uni days. The job got so routined that i have decided to try other jobs after three hols. But now, i got back into this for the money. The pay is good. :p

Initially, this job got a bit boring. I have nothing to do except to listen to calls for the first two days. But on the second week, i was posted to the white house branch to do menial work. Now, that's hard work. I was given the task of sending out 2000 mails within two days. My job is to stack a set of our brouchures (seven pieces per stack), put it into an envelope and paste stamps as well as the address labels. Very menial stuffs. Seems easy but 2000 mails wasn't easy. I didn't leave the room for the first two days. And i had to work OT until 10 the first night. I still couldn't finish. End up using two and a half days to finish my work. Then it was back to Hill Street to pick up calls. I think the manager saw that i was too free, he called me to continue some librarian work the last admin assistant left behind. That was boring. =(

Then the BIG break came. I was to be in charge of an advertising campaign over the weekend. Initially i thought they were just asking me to look for people for the campaign but they wanted me to redo the brouchures into flyers, get the people and organise the event. I was thrilled! However, when they told me i only had a day to prepare, i was shocked! How will it be possible?!?!?! Only one day to look for 10 people who are willing to help me and to get the flyers ready for 1000 pieces each over two days! That would mean i would have to prepare 20,000 pieces!! This is insane!!! But i had already accepted the job, i saw no other way out. So for the second time in three weeks, i had to do OT till 10.30. But i could only manage to get 4 people and 4000 copies ready for distribution. And i had to start real early on the next day. Well, first things first, so i started the event and i got all tired from distributing the flyers. It is a tiring job, standing for the entire morning, smiling at the strangers and willing them to take the flyers. My only consolation is the "beautiful smile" comment and the fact that the people my friend introduced were efficient people and willing to work. Guess i have to thank my friend, You Qin, for his help. Moreover, they were also willing to help me do the rest of the 6000 copies for the following day at the same price. I was so happy they could help because my boss gave me another 600 mails to send through the weekend too. I was so stressed doing both jobs at the same time. Luckily Jo Sheng was very supportive and he and his friends were really responsible. I had no worries. Moreover, the department i was doing the flyers for had told me that 10,000 copies were sufficient for the event, hence my workload was halved. I was soooooo relieved.

But it didn't end there. This event thingy got the whole office into an uproar. THis is because a lot of people think that i am not supposed to be doing the work (i'm just a temp staff, after all!) and it is unreasonable of the department head to ask me to do it. THe collegues have been really helpful though, saying that i did help them a lot (although they think that the campaign was just the head's last minute work). I think it was a personal success though. =) Never mind what others said.

In addition to my work, i am still giving tuition. It really was a busy week. I have to reschedule my sat tuition to tuesday for Kyland and Bali due to the fact that they had to go for gym lessons on sat. And due to the event, Olin's was also rescheduled to thurs. busy busy busy week. wonder if next week i still have to give my cousin tuition as well? I don't mind the money... =P

Well, all in all think i have had a really busy week since exams are over, but i think it's all worth it. Hope that there's more to come!!!!!!!!!!